Wild and Faithful Heart

Why Do I write? I come and write the most random things in this blog , and when the topics can range from my basic life or things from my past  . I share pieces of my journey of my life because I want people to know that they arent alone along with their feelings or things that may have happened to them. I have an empathetic personality , within that I can feel emotions more deeply. I tend to want to help out and reach out more. My Blog well this one specifically is a way for me to reach out without actually being there. I've had a colorful life , and my life has been easy and then its been hard. I deal with depression sometimes , and then sometimes I deal with anxiety , or nervousness or im happy. The emotions I can feel range but its not a constant battle over time ive learned to deal with my emotions , in a healthy way. But it wasn't that way for awhile learning how to cope , giving myself that step to walk into a counselors office within my university. And shown I can b...

This might be a long or a short entry.. The last journal or blog post as we all know it . I wasn't in the best place , I was down a dark hole. Do I often go there ? No I dont I usually tend to have a more positive view on my life. I mean honestly it can be worse . There are so many people that usually tell you that. I started the process to start my career in law enforcement , within this last year. And honestly it has been hard , while I write this post it is currently 43 degrees outside and I am currently planning on going on my daily run\jog. Its truly hard to go , when my body doesn't love it. But I just feel drawn to law enforcement , although graduated with a very broad field. Within this , you also could ask you struggle with stress and anxiety so why bother with a job that is going to throw you in a higher levels of stress and anxiety? I've become a pro at self care and handling how I feel within my life. If you are given the right tools to handle that type of st...

Tonight I sit here and write my feelings out because , I cant calm down otherwise. The time ticks away , as I should be sleeping for work the next day. When I started this blog well .. this one personally I wanted to share my life experiences with the world. I wanted to share my struggles my triumphs and my battles. My dreams and I wanted first to let people know that they are not alone within all of this. That there is someone out there who cares and understands what you are going through. Well , mental health has been here and there in the media lately , and while everyone feels like they know how to fix their friends. To hold their hand , while they rant and rave , or cry do they really know what their friends need? Can you spot someone in the crowd that has been struggling lately? that hides behind a smile , and then goes home alone and cries themselves to sleep at night? No this isn't a self help post , or what to do when your friend is depressed. The one thing that people in...

I haven't written in forever and sometimes thats usually my fault. Life usually gets the better of me and I push this aside. As stated in my last post , I am now an official alumni from my school ENMU. And now I am a substitute teacher for the same school district I actually graduated from in 2010. I subbed for the greater half of my spring semester as they would call it. And I am kinda looking forwarding to maybe sub for a whole school year until I move on to greener pastures somewhere else if  life allows me to. Realizing that work alone and the church activities keep me busy on my own. Usually do the job I often wondered how I survived while I had school going on. Apart from finishing the year , im hopeful to make this the Sumner I actually travel a little bit. Apart from traveling and trying to find a place in this world. I am a Monarch Formals Model for 2018 , Monarch Formals is a non-profit organization that provides formals for those who might not be able to afford that ...

Well its happened , the one thing that I cried over stressed over seven years well six of my life slaving for a degree. This last December , I graduated with my degree officially now I have a bachelor's degree in criminal justice with a minor in sociology. It was this roller coaster of life , for a few weeks , wondering if truly I had received my degree. Well , long story short I got the official answer to my question and I was given my diploma. As always I usually get the post grad questions and something I knew I had to get use to. What now? Arent you glad? Get Ready for the rest of your life? Well , its been going on seven weeks fresh out of my school job. Rules are if you arent a student well you cant hold a student job. So I had to leave the one job I had held for two years going on three. It was bitter sweet , to volunteer to leave one of my favorite positions that I had held as a student . So I guess what is the question now? What is on my mind now? Well I've been on th...

I struggle , I struggle with the past , with the hurt that I feel day to day sometimes. I struggle with the life I thought I was going to have two years ago. I struggle with the self confidence , and feeling comfortable in my own skin. We all have our struggles , and our vices things that no matter how much self improvement we want to do . They will always be there , and it sucks but I digress we move on. But through and through we have to remember that , The Lord is with us no matter what . Through our tears and our self doubt that we believe in he is there. He reminds us in scripture , through these verses and more . That though we may struggle we need to know that Trusting in him , is something that needs to happen. Without learning to trust him , then we will continue to self doubt our problems and troubles. Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your...

Well its getting closer to the start of the semester , and I have all my supplies ready to go. I am taking two online classes and working "full" time at my student job. Trying to get back in the network terms of a sense since everything went a little haywire during the holidays. My views and my engagement when down hit rock bottom. I honestly thought it was better to spend time with the family. And thats what I did , I am making more strides in loving my own company. Also in writing , I think I would like to write part time for a internet company. PuckerMob , or a journalism type of thing. I think it would be fun. My goals for this weekend is to plan more posts for the coming weeks , maybe binge watch that show I have been dying to watch and practice some self care and love. As well as worship and get more into the word <3 Until next Time oxox

I have posted my testimony through out my time here on the blog. But as most people know testimonies change as you go throughout your life. Your story changes things happen and you learn new things. My life has always been with the church I grew up christian , I went to VBS and then soon after that I went to church camp. But throughout that, I had times in my life where I wondered if God was really there. My brothers sickness , both of them as infants dealt with sickness while in the hospital one recovered while the other is still monitored closely . There was other times , but this is going to be short. Either way I worried about the future and what it held for me , I was a senior in high school . And I was a mess , I was worried about what would happen in the next few years. While at church camp during worship no doubt I felt this calming presence. Just letting me know that I am alright and everything would be alright. And somehow I knew that feeling was just right. Well college c...

 Day 4 Your Dream Job:   My dream Job , is a combination of a couple of things I would and I love my criminal justice degree. I want to help those who have been wronged at the same time I would like to help stop human trafficking . I want to bring light on womens issues at the same time I also would like to help prevent domestic abuse. So there is a lot I wish I could do , so at the same time I dont know what my dream job would be . I just have so much passion for the things that I love. Day 5 Your Proudest moment: This one is somewhat tough because I dont have just one moment . I have a few and a few here and there . I cannot just name one which is bad or good? I really dont know.. Day 6 The thing that you are most afraid of: I have a fear of being alone , for the rest of my life. Though a lot of people say and know that sometimes you are ment to be single. And somehow I dont know if someone else is in the cards for me. Somehow I do feel , though that hopefully s...

So Today is my blogging challenge Catch Up Today, I made a promise to keep up with it and honestly it does help my writing. I will be writing up and stopping at day 3, so now you get to know a little bit about me. Day one: Blog Name  Honestly now that my life has changed for the better and I soon will graduate college hopefully. I will be changing the name. And hope my readers stay with me, I started this blog as a journal of sorts and I started it in college hence the name. At the same time it also went by another name , since I was in a relationship. Short story but simple. Day Two:20 facts about you ok 20 facts ... I am a introvert with extrovert days , somedays you can honestly get me out of my shell.  I am a huge movie and film buff  I am a cat lover  I have been an extra in a movie , and My degree use to be in acting  I love reading but haven't found the time to read my long list of to read  I love blogging  I love to shoot , and I...

I didn't want to be that lovesick person , who still thinks about her ex. I have my faults and I know he is someone who is like a weakness to me. Something that I think back on though I shouldn't. He was someone , I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. I feel like I make these posts once a month. Wondering about it all , wondering why I couldn't just read the signs and just leave. I guess I am human. I rather not bore y'all , but sometimes I feel the need to let these emotions out. I dream about him , mostly arguing and fighting about what happened. Seeing him with another girl , I feel like these dreams are petty and most days I want them to stop. I want to stop seeing him in my dreams. I want the feelings to stop , I want to stop feeling something for him. He was like something I never encountered. I was in love and apparently he wasn't. Ill keep this short and go back to my faith base posts . Which I have not been posting in awhile .  .. now stay t...

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Its Been a Few weeks or rather a month since ive seen the movie Gods Not Dead , in theaters and  It really opened my eyes . At the same time it also made me a bit upset , I was always taught the share the word of God with those I meet , no matter what and through different ways . But in someways the movie showed the stereotypical christian. Turning away from those deemed sinners and not trying to share the word at all. But at the same time it showed that we all deal with troubles in our life , and sometimes we feel as if God is not there but he truly is . He may not be as real as you and me but he is there for us , watching us , upset sometimes , but never hating his followers. He never hates us no matter what , I myself have made mistakes with my significant other and we have admitted jumping into things way to quickly.Not thinking about the way I grew up , and wanting to save myself for marriage . Yes I do admit my fault in what I did , I am not a perfect person neither is ...

Its Valentines Day!  Who's your special someone , I thought I would highlight my special someone . Daddy to snickers and my wonderful hubby . I never thought I would ever meet someone who I connected so much with and spoils me. I think of all the years I want to spend with this man and that is forever , he may not even be someone I imagined myself with . But hes perfect to me in my eyes , when I cannot stand to face the day he is there and loving me . <3 ~Ill keep this short.. I love him..