Wild and Faithful Heart

 Amid my crazy life , and things that now flow within it. I always come back to him , my first everything . My first true relationship , my first kiss.. there was days where life was simple. And filled with wonder and delight.  I wanted to write this post to get this off my back. I met a milestone today I deleted hopefully and removed from sight my last photos of us. I look at the light in our eyes, the hope for the future that we were going to live together. But what I couldn't see was the slight control you had over my life. Sure I had freedoms , that was a given I was allowed to do things maybe others couldn't . I feel like this is the 6th or 5th post ive made , but when I back down I see this as a healing process. Its been a full year and a couple of months since , I turned and left. Since I left the dreams that I had thought of us. You since this , and now I have no clue last I heard you were on your 2nd girlfriend or maybe the same one. Me since then? no one , a few

I am currently reading several books , I try to give each an equal time of reading. One of them is A tale of three kings and one is a "fun" book and the other is a devotional type of book . From one of my favorite authors , either way im reading this Sumner. You can catch it all on my good reads profile. Anyways.. if I usually have a headline for this I think of it as something worth being shared. They are my thoughts on the book and what I think... so .. lets go...!  The first few chapters bring us the story of David , a young Shepard boy. Who took care of their families flock of sheep. He was the youngest and a passive person I think . Being the youngest he wasn't really relied on much but to watch and protect the sheep. Samuel , was told to find the next ruler of the kingdom. Though he did not find David right on time , he thought that God meant for one of this other brothers to become King. One was strong the other smart, they each had some kind of characteri