Wild and Faithful Heart

 If I could I would say this.. since you've been in my life . You've made me feel like somehow I can conquer the world and try my best at anything. When your name lights up on my phone , I smile one of those smiles that you love. Just honestly friends right now , but I want to know you more and learn more and keep having you around me. You make me laugh with the silliest and stupidest things , you make me want to be better for myself and you. I know that our pasts have been not the greatest and we've had pain and things that we regret. You tell me , your keeping your distance because your scared at what I will think. But still, I want you to come closer to draw closer within your own time. Please don't ever feel that you aren't enough. Don't ever think that I wont turn away.. somehow things work out for a reason and things are still smoky as I would call it. We don't know where this is going to go.. but I still see something there I just don't know what ...

I just thought I would share my feelings , And my life now as the holiday's come close. And another year has passed, Its been two years since I have said goodbye to the life I knew for 3 years. And since then I can honestly say I have changed. My life is different I am so close to my last semester of College. Walking the stage and moving on with the rest of my life. I am active in the church , I participate and I help with youth group. I am a leader in the college ministry and I am apart of it. I am going to try yet again to loose weight , Though I  have lost some weight. Funny enough , its a up and down thing with the weight thing . But I am trying to do my best , I am going to try my first modified fasting. And starting to get greater into the word and my prayers. I often think about life and what it would truly be if I did not leave. But yet I leave that to the imagination. I just rather not think about it. I just rather continue on with my life and enjoy time. I hope for th...