Wild and Faithful Heart

I haven't talked on here in awhile , and other than my usual talk. I thought I would talk about different parts of my life. And since this is the net , as I would call it when I talk about other family members I usually refer them to their first name or a different name altogether. To keep them safe , and to keep my family safe. Ok back to my post I just thought I would make that Clear to some who wonder and read this blog. Anyways , somedays I can remember the first day when my mother told me she was pregnant. I was in 2nd grade I believe and I was ecstatic and curious. Most of my life till that time wondered how it would be to have a sibling. What it would be , and what would happen. Who knew , I grew up more faster than I thought? My mother is a single mother if no one knew. So I became and starting to take on the role of big sister and little mommy. I dont want anyone to think my mother did not do her job. Shes a wonderful mother , but she thought it would be a good time to te...

Things are different , now this is not the 19020's or 50's. Most people don't believe in Happy Ever After , they move on from girl to girl or man to man. Growing old together most of the time means , until im bored , and I feel like im ruining your life. Its hard sometimes to understand how we can be so careless with love. I understand falling in and out of love clearly , but what I don't get is not communicating when that is happening. We just keep it all inside , we bottle it up ( I'm guilty of that) and we don't talk about it. Instead we wait and we cry alone , or drink alone. Which ever you prefer. And then we put on this mask , where we hide our true emotions we pretend that it is not hurting us. We hide our emotional , crazy bag of cats until we feel like we need to reveal it. Online dating is the end of something that use to be so special , we can scroll through a catalog of people and decide hey I want to talk to her or hey she seems nice. But most of th...