Wild and Faithful Heart

 If I could I would say this.. since you've been in my life . You've made me feel like somehow I can conquer the world and try my best at anything. When your name lights up on my phone , I smile one of those smiles that you love. Just honestly friends right now , but I want to know you more and learn more and keep having you around me. You make me laugh with the silliest and stupidest things , you make me want to be better for myself and you. I know that our pasts have been not the greatest and we've had pain and things that we regret. You tell me , your keeping your distance because your scared at what I will think. But still, I want you to come closer to draw closer within your own time. Please don't ever feel that you aren't enough. Don't ever think that I wont turn away.. somehow things work out for a reason and things are still smoky as I would call it. We don't know where this is going to go.. but I still see something there I just don't know what ...

Its Valentines Day!  Who's your special someone , I thought I would highlight my special someone . Daddy to snickers and my wonderful hubby . I never thought I would ever meet someone who I connected so much with and spoils me. I think of all the years I want to spend with this man and that is forever , he may not even be someone I imagined myself with . But hes perfect to me in my eyes , when I cannot stand to face the day he is there and loving me . <3 ~Ill keep this short.. I love him..

Life can be a fickle thing sometimes , I thought I had finally made it home and was going to start my life with my baby (aka furbaby snickers) and my hubby. I had moved back and I was happy, but we were struggling money wise and it hurt to see snickers daddy so stressed about the littlest things. So the school decided to give me federal work-study money to work , but the thing was I had already left! what the heck , finally I got so upset and wound up that I decided to leave the family once more. It hurt so much because I wanted to stay so bad , but we needed the money . So I have packed up clothing and school things and now im living with my mother while I take a seasonal job at my college. And I've never missed my life at home with my cat and my hubby more. I thought I had climbed this hill , but none the less I want to thank-you everyone who sent litter  and food to help us . It was greatly needed and taken , so thank-you You dont know how much it means to me . None the less ...