Wild and Faithful Heart

There is a world out there where nothing makes sense , beauty is viewed differently and people dont see what they should see. If you ever think you are not beautiful then look in the mirror because you are. Dont let anyone decide differently you are beautiful and so worth everything. If you dont think you are worth it think of everything that you have been through. Think of everything that makes you, something. Strong , loyal , and the one thing that should always be there is confidence to know that God made you for a reason. Even though through these dark times it may not be known . Some how it is there and you know it. To look at yourself in the mirror and know that you are beautiful

Here is to 2016 and the new adventures that they may bring! I never thought I would be where I was this year. When I was in the relationship I was in I thought that I would be there forever . But let me get this straight in a good way not a bad way. But now that it is over and things have moved on in my own life. But now it is 2016 and there are much more things to be excited about. I have hopefully two mission trips in my future that I am hopefully going to be able to go on. I am starting my Sr. Year of college now , and I cannot wait to graduate and get on with the rest of my life. I recently started attending a new church alone. I guess my own way of growing up and starting something with a new church family. There is so much growth in my life and I am grateful for it. I want to be more into my blog and sharing with my family. Far and wide I also have made my goal to lose about 50-55pds this year in order to fulfill my future career fitness standards. So im excited about kicking ...

In the style of Pucker Mob, if you dont know what that is google it . To the one I thought I would grow old with, I read these various articles that explain my feels to the point . I feel like they are reading from my diary, my personal one not the one I put out there. We were beautiful you and me . Some kind of storm that just worked , you made the demons in my head grow quiet. I silenced yours, I brought light into your life like you said when all you could see was darkness. I remember that first night we spent together, both young, stupid and falling in love. I was thinking these dreams in my head. Marrying and falling deep in love the kind that you see in movies and want so badly. We moved in together and began the "married life" even though we weren't married. We both worked jobs and lived a comfortable life style for awhile. Then hard times hit , and with those hard times ,  came regret , sorrow , and depression. You yelled , and made your point too many times ...

Well guys , its Christmas Time! and Definitely my Favorite Time of the year! And then a New Year is Coming up Fast. Finals went well .. for the most part my GPA went from the 2.35 to a 2.40 which isnt the greatest thing . In honesty but where it use to be and how it keeps climbing is what I am proud of. I got about a year of school left, to try to make it a 3.0 at the most , to make graduation good. I have an internship that I still need to do as well. This year has honestly been one of the most challenging years to date. I started the year , with so much hope and then my relationship to come crashing at my feet. But as time went by, and I started to really get back to the things that I love. I drew closer to the lord, I joined a new church , and started to help with the college ministry. I actually attend while school is in session 3 times a week some form of church. Two college ministries and my new home church. It feels like a new form of being an adult , choosing your own church...

  Its an ongoing thing , Soldiers face deployment every single day. Its hard out there and most arent the same as when they left. Sometimes they need a pick me up. And sometimes they need to know that someone is thinking about them. In this case many leave to go overseas without having anyone think about them. When mail call comes around they dont get their name called. For me this is an ongoing thing I have said as a college student . I only have the resources to sponsor one name but there are tons of names out there though many organizations. That help every solider know that they are loved. I try to send cards. And letters almost every week. I try to make it a habit to send a carepackage. Every month. I send items depending on the month and what is going on.  I have pictures of Several boxes I have made including the Christmas box I just recently sent off. Most crave anything that just reminds them of home and that people out there are thinking about them. I send sna...

I've been through a lot this year , and its almost coming to a close. November is rolling around its actually Nov.1 today as I write this. I honestly think the one thing that has been constant in my life has been my faith and my belief that god has a plan for me. Towards the start of the end of my relationship. I was bitter and clinging to some faith that it was all apart of God's Plan. That he made it end for a reason. And now that I sit here and think , maybe it was all apart of God's never ending plan for us. Well me in general , One thing that was constant that I was the light in his never ending darkness. My ex came from a dark past that still more than likely haunts him to this day. Now its growing closer to God all I have is forgiveness. I actually pray for him , when I do my prayers. I pray that he receives peace and that God protects him.I pray for all his family. Since growing closer to my faith. I've come to the choice that I need to set faith goals . And ...