Wild and Faithful Heart

Well as most things go , testimony's change with time we go through certain versions of our story with god. Sometimes they change for the good and sometimes they take a turn for the worse. Well its been a few years since my last one and it has changed I can already tell you that. Well lets start shall we? What can I say I grew up in a Christ loving household. But here's the catch , to a single parent household my father left my mom early . For awhile it was my mom and me against the world , she made sure that everything I would ever need was provided for me. Food clothing etc and a little bit extra. She was blessed with all she could need at that present moment. But I guess you could say I always struggled with the fact my father was never around. Throughout my childhood, I was given these images and saw different things. Father daughter dance , Father's day I guess you can say each event broke me a little. Where was my father? why didn't he want me? These questions ...

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Honestly , dating these days isn't like what it use to be. You use to get interested in someone, and if they liked you back . Well you went and they took you out on date , they got to know the real you. If you still were interested you kept dating . If you weren't you either stayed as friends or went your separate ways.  And something like that now is a fairy tale , there is "ghosting" or the "hookup" nothing real anymore. I am not telling you that there arent good actual guys who are gentleman, because there are. They do these sort of things , because they generally want to date someone. If you arent familiar with the terms "ghosting" or "hooking up". I can explain , "ghosting" is basically when a man or woman basically decides since the date did not go well. They disappear , no hint of anything wrong or goodbye. "Hooking up" , is basically what it sounds like .. or rather "netflix and chill" they invite you...

I am writing this quick post , honestly because im having withdraws from social media. FB and snap chat to be specific. I always wonder what would the world be like if there was no social media. Would people act different would the world be a better place? would people actually pay attention to each other? would dating be different? back in the old times where a guy acted like a gentleman rather than a rowdy boy? We were given a challenge to fast from something that is taking up space in our lives or what we are addicted to. I chose social media why? did I chose it ? Well honestly its the one thing it my life that I waste time on that I could be doing other things with. My mother claims that is the xbox , but honestly out of the whole week im on maybe once or twice a week maybe 3 times? lol I have to work time in to relax with something like that. Anyways, so the fast began today for me. No FB or snapchat for month During this time I will use my time wisely including praying more an...

There is a world out there where nothing makes sense , beauty is viewed differently and people dont see what they should see. If you ever think you are not beautiful then look in the mirror because you are. Dont let anyone decide differently you are beautiful and so worth everything. If you dont think you are worth it think of everything that you have been through. Think of everything that makes you, something. Strong , loyal , and the one thing that should always be there is confidence to know that God made you for a reason. Even though through these dark times it may not be known . Some how it is there and you know it. To look at yourself in the mirror and know that you are beautiful

Here is to 2016 and the new adventures that they may bring! I never thought I would be where I was this year. When I was in the relationship I was in I thought that I would be there forever . But let me get this straight in a good way not a bad way. But now that it is over and things have moved on in my own life. But now it is 2016 and there are much more things to be excited about. I have hopefully two mission trips in my future that I am hopefully going to be able to go on. I am starting my Sr. Year of college now , and I cannot wait to graduate and get on with the rest of my life. I recently started attending a new church alone. I guess my own way of growing up and starting something with a new church family. There is so much growth in my life and I am grateful for it. I want to be more into my blog and sharing with my family. Far and wide I also have made my goal to lose about 50-55pds this year in order to fulfill my future career fitness standards. So im excited about kicking ...

In the style of Pucker Mob, if you dont know what that is google it . To the one I thought I would grow old with, I read these various articles that explain my feels to the point . I feel like they are reading from my diary, my personal one not the one I put out there. We were beautiful you and me . Some kind of storm that just worked , you made the demons in my head grow quiet. I silenced yours, I brought light into your life like you said when all you could see was darkness. I remember that first night we spent together, both young, stupid and falling in love. I was thinking these dreams in my head. Marrying and falling deep in love the kind that you see in movies and want so badly. We moved in together and began the "married life" even though we weren't married. We both worked jobs and lived a comfortable life style for awhile. Then hard times hit , and with those hard times ,  came regret , sorrow , and depression. You yelled , and made your point too many times ...