Wild and Faithful Heart

"You Are More"~ Tenth Avenue North  There's a girl in the corner  With tear stains on her eyes  From the places she's wandered  And the shame she can't hide  She says, "How did I get here?  I'm not who I once was.  And I'm crippled by the fear  That I've fallen too far to love"  But don't you know who you are,  What's been done for you?  Yeah don't you know who you are?  You are more than the choices that you've made,  You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,  You are more than the problems you create,  You've been remade.  Well she tries to believe it  That she's been given new life  But she can't shake the feeling  That it's not true tonight  She knows all the answers  And she's rehearsed all the lines  And so she'll try to do better  But then she's too weak to try  But don't you know who you are?  You are more than the choices that you've ma...

I am a Christian , And I believe a lot of things , I wouldn't really call myself a closet christian or a out there trying to save everyone on the planet person. I believe that there is a god , and that he has a plan for each of us Some may ask , well you dont go to church .. you Arent a christian. I fully believe that the church is a building that we meet at and the church doesn't make us its the people who fill the church . Im not a perfect christian either, no one is no matter how hard they try . Ive done things , I rather not go into detail that im not proud of but im getting better , im trying to make things right . But people have to know , Its a choice I made yes what I did was a mistake but .. Im learning from it . Without getting into too much detail , I gave it up to my future husband just honestly a little too early. And some people wonder about the reason I chose to move in with him before we got marr...

A lot of people look at me and the place I grew up , and my Hispanic origin  wonder why I am the weird one lol. Who loves Broadway , Dance and Acting .. Most of those things tie in together Ive noticed .  My culture does have stuff that is Broadway and other things .. But they Arent as main stream . But Heck I admit it , I love to dance , I may not be as good as most people but I try . If I could attend dance class everyday I would . Dance is Freedom to Me , its like releasing stress I think one of my main dreams is I wish I could dance what I was feeling . I do it when im alone , :P but thats beside the point, I love acting yes I did give it up for another degree but the point is that one of the reasons I quit was that favorites were always getting picked . And also I really dont think im that good , lets be honest  Now if I get the chance to move from this area I am going to pursue acting , and get my nurses degre...

My heart goes out to all the families who were effected by the shooting , and also the EMS , Police and Fire on scene . And then the unsung heroes the dispatchers who took those frightened calls , of the people inside. They are the angels on the other end of the line , apart from their jobs being stressful they hear the frightened calls the screams of horror unable to do anything  . But be there for the person, and try to keep them calm until help comes for them. ~RIP to all the victims ~

Katy Perry is my hero and my own personal mentor , she grew up in a strict christian household . Where the bible was the law like me . I love her choices to be out there and be herself and not let anyone hold her back from what she wants to do . She was different from her family , and she has been through some hard times , but did she crumble? yes maybe a little .. but she got through it . I admire her strength to keep going even though times are tough . I want to be the person who I want to be , I want to be happy .. I may go through some tough times . Like now , but I know that .. It wont rain forever .. Her parents after a while , are happy that she is doing what she loves . But she lost christian friends because of it , its hard .. to go after your dreams and become someone great and live a happy life. Things happen for a Reason, they honestly do .. and you learn . I wasn't allowed to do so much in my house it wasn't funny ..  my best f...

Well , found out a lot of things these last weeks  Cam will not be going into the army national guard due to eye problems. Well they lost a very good solider , he took it a little hard the first day but then he was ok. Once one door opens another closes , that's what I say  . But life goes on , in the house of Lucero Im still trying to find a job due to the lack of people not needing anybody . But im trying so hard many people think im moping , but im not the trouble is .. there are no jobs here unless you beg on your hands and knees . Or just wait .. honestly last time I was let off it took me two months before I finally got in another job . Its hard and its so freaking frustrating when you think you found a job or someone who might take you . But they cant because they cant afford you or they staff out of town. I hate it , people are starting to honestly think im lazy but im not , im sorry im not fit for the job im sorry , I cant do this or this .. I...

what can I say about my colorful life? LOL .. not a dull day .. not a dull day.. Well .. its somewhat official sort of according to cam, hes a in the Army National Guard . Reserve duty for a year , then a switch to active duty, its what he always wanted . And with the army comes basic training and other training. So 5+ months without my other half, ~sigh~ ... I try not to think about it he tells me not to count my chickens before they hatch he may not be in .  Either way me being me im going to sit there and know somehow that he will leave soon .. :( sad face .. I dont want him to leave if there is someway for him to be in the army and not leave I would take that . But he has to go to training, I got to calm myself down and know that everything will be ok . Gosh knows ill be counting down the days until I see him again , hes the best thing that has happened to me. And im going to take his last name someday , Gods plan has so much for us I cant w...