Wild and Faithful Heart

So , I am going to update you all on the journey so far , I have stepped up the work and the effort to lose the stubborn weight that I have been carrying all these days. Since the semester has ended my two hour workouts , have been shorted to an 30 min workout at the most. I am going to try to do my best to take back the time that I have lost and add one more hour , for the total of 3 hours spread out through the day. Two here , one here , and one last one somewhere in between . I think the word for this Sumner , would be confidence to have the passion to dive after my weight loss goals and crush them. I already have crushed one goal , to pass a certain physical fitness test I need to run 1.50 in 15 min , I can run 1.00 in 17 , so I need to cut that down. But its a start , As well as having a meal plan and sticking to it . Sweets and junk every once in awhile more like once a month or so. Sticking with a plan makes something more worthwhile.  Until next time.  start wei...

I dont think in a normal sense that , I did not move on.. I just somehow held hope that maybe. Though he was horrible match , I still loved him with my whole being. And I am still effected to this day by the things that happened. I am now , ripping off that imaginary band -aid allowing the wound to bleed its course to heal and to repair and scab over. We travel we search that whole world for someone who would understand what we feel. And when we think that we have found that person , its so hard to let go.  When that person has found someone else.  You have to stop , stop bringing up the memories , stop looking to the past to fulfill the hurt that has long since past.  But somehow , even years from now I know that we will somehow think about the past . Though we do our best not to. We will still remember the gifts the trips , the love that was shared no matter the harder times that were shared. He has moved on and so should you. You need , I need to allow myself to ...

Its hard for me not to , but I still think what or where would be now? Would we be married? Would we be living in Texas ? What would be doing? I know Im better off without you , but there are those moments where I miss you. I see you in other people , and I know thats wrong , I should not miss you I should be thinking about the bad times. But I still remember the way that you smelled , the curious look in your eye when you were up to no good. The childlike wonder , I still think what would be today , if we never departed what would we be? These are my random thoughts..