When it comes down to it .. You Gave Up , I did not ..

When it comes down to it , and its the brutal truth . Maybe someday you will read this or maybe not. Most days I believe that I kept going despite all the craziness that went with your life. If I honestly gave up then I would have left a long time ago. I stuck it out for 3 years, and when it comes close to say it. I would not have changed it for the world , you showed  me so much , what I wanted to have and what I did not need to deal with or deserve.
When I do get in that mood or I think about what could have happened. I was the one who was wanting to stick it out until the end. I was the one who would have climbed mountains for you. When you did the basics , you were loving you were there for me when it counted. But at the same time , you lost that same spirit that you once had. But I still remember that day , when you gave up . When you said that is enough , when you sat and told me all these lies. And dont get me wrong , I thought at the time , it was the truth. YOU were the one who said that nothing was going to change , when it did. YOU were the one who claimed we were on a break. I dont want to sound bitter or hateful. I am just pointing out the truth.. YOU were the one who gave up when I would have kept going bleeding heart and all . I saw this quote and then I had to understand it all , if you fully give up. Then you really never wanted it , you truly just needed something at the time. I dont know what that could have been .
But in the end... I guess it wasnt me.