Wild and Faithful Heart

Well its getting closer to the start of the semester , and I have all my supplies ready to go. I am taking two online classes and working "full" time at my student job. Trying to get back in the network terms of a sense since everything went a little haywire during the holidays. My views and my engagement when down hit rock bottom. I honestly thought it was better to spend time with the family. And thats what I did , I am making more strides in loving my own company. Also in writing , I think I would like to write part time for a internet company. PuckerMob , or a journalism type of thing. I think it would be fun. My goals for this weekend is to plan more posts for the coming weeks , maybe binge watch that show I have been dying to watch and practice some self care and love. As well as worship and get more into the word <3 Until next Time oxox

This is to the girl , That is crying right now the heart break being fresh in her mind. This is for the girl who cannot get him out of her mind. I see you , how well put together you are sometimes and then sometimes you just fall apart. I was that girl , I still see that girl somedays she doesn't want to get up but she knows that she must face the day with everything she has. Who sees the couples on the sidewalk and in church or the coffee shop. Wishing that was still her, who still held on to that promise that he might show up one day. With a vase of flowers and wanting to tell her everything was alright. Honey he wont come back he wont ever come back. Maybe by some miracle he might come back , but what is the advantage in that? What is the true reward , if he comes back with his head hung low he just might be the same person that you left. You know what you need to do? You need to take a bath , not just a normal bath , buy one of those fun bath bombs. Paint your toenails , ...

When it comes down to it , and its the brutal truth . Maybe someday you will read this or maybe not. Most days I believe that I kept going despite all the craziness that went with your life. If I honestly gave up then I would have left a long time ago. I stuck it out for 3 years, and when it comes close to say it. I would not have changed it for the world , you showed  me so much , what I wanted to have and what I did not need to deal with or deserve. When I do get in that mood or I think about what could have happened. I was the one who was wanting to stick it out until the end. I was the one who would have climbed mountains for you. When you did the basics , you were loving you were there for me when it counted. But at the same time , you lost that same spirit that you once had. But I still remember that day , when you gave up . When you said that is enough , when you sat and told me all these lies. And dont get me wrong , I thought at the time , it was the truth. YOU were the...